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[Jan. 16th, 2006|07:07 pm] |
Welcome to my lovely abode. No school today, due to MLK day. Oh snap. I want to go out tonight, too bad the car is being retarded. What happened? My car hates the cold. Cali here I come. Then my Honda can won't be a bitch. I think I shall go there after high school. College is not going to happen, so the beach will be my new love. I want to move. Any takers for a roomie? I am the cleanest person to live with. Everything has a place. Everything is clean. My breath does smell, but thats due to me always being hungry. I can never be full, but I never put on weight. Chicks hate me. This is my new journal. I used to have a blog, but that turned on me. I looked into myspace, but it kind of freaked the shit out of me. Maybe I will give it another shot. Yea, just maybe. Well, for now, I must leave this hell hole and search for supper. I'm craving KFC. Maybe the car will stop being a bitch.
Okay first things first, why I decided to make a journal. I needed a place to vent my teenage frustations. My parents. I love them to death but they are having a hard time with this whole me not going to college thing. If I hear the "you'll never make it" speech again I'll rip my brown hairs out. I know that. But I want a chance to see if I could make it without college. My brother is a freshman in Rhode Island. He loves it there, he comes home on the weekends to spend time with us and his girlfriend. I make the drive out to see him sometimes and we go to this bar he likes. We are close. Which brings me to a bigger issue. I am in love with his girlfriend. I know, I sound like a soap opera. She's gorgeous. Blue eyes, brown hair, everything about her is perfect. My brother, I love him, but he doesn't deserve someone like her. She's a freshman at QCC, the community college here in Worcester. Thats why I see her a hell of a lot more than he does. Don't get me wrong. I kissed her once, and that was it. We decided to hang out as friends because neither of us want to hurt my bro. But its killing me inside to see him kiss her, or hold her hand. That kiss we had was amazing. I want to take her to my prom. Fuck it I want to marry this girl. We talk on the phone all the time. We meet up for lunch everyday since her school isn't too far from mine. She's only a few months older than me. 4 months actually. Shes been seeing my brother since last april. Its hard for us to spend time together because my bro is home from college until next week. Then maybe I'll tell him the truth about me and his girlfriend. Maybe. I can't sleep unless I talk to her. I don't know what to do. I love this girl. With everything that I am. What do I do? Okay, well I am off to get some KFC. My brother wants to go with me. |
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